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The sky's been crying non stop today.It makes me wonder how can the clouds carry so much water?Coz normally it will rain for awhile and stop after those heavy clouds let everything out.But today,is amazing.
Even human doesnt have the ability to cry for so long.The tears will eventually end and if we still keep on crying,we'll cry blood instead.
I guess that's what happening to me now.Am now taking rest from filling in the BIG stack of forms sent by the university.And i realise there's so much to do and yet to be done.*SIGH* I'm not feeling that down anymore.Maybe already numb.Or maybe i have learnt to accept that there's nothing else i can do.Just counting the days.
Just a short entry.Suddenly have the urge to blog.Heez.. =)
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Happy birthday to me!!~
1st of all,am so sorie to myself coz i didnt post this yesterday!! >.<
Well,was a great day yesterday =) Like tiz poem from my godsis:
December sunlight floats and falls,
Like soapsuds on the castle walls,
Then June came out with this baby girl,
She was so cute that she could swing the world,
Wow!She's now already 20,
But still collecting posters of Mr.Bean,
Isn't that childish of Miss Yee Chen?
But she's smart,especially at fooling me!
Anyways,this girl always wants it her way,
But we'll give in to her since it's her.....TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY,HAPPY BDAY,SIS! =P
So creative eh?By the way,i dont collect posters of Mr.Bean.Hahas...
Also,sorie that i did not update on the university application stuffs..So some of you might think i'm still waiting for the results.But actually i got into UTM at johore!And offered the course computer science~ *cheers* =D
WARNING: Those who are feeling sad leaving home for university please do not read on as it might make you wanna commit suicide.
I should feel lucky and thankful that i get a good uni and course.But i'm not feeling happy at all.Being a homely person i dont like the idea of leaving the house though some may say Johore is not as far as those who got Sabah.There's still another 8 days to go before my departure and i can imagine myself crying the night before.Or i can cry every night from now so that there'll be no more tears to shed on that day.Sort of numb.*sigh*
Can i choose not to go?First,my dad will kill me.Second,my friends will kill me.Ok,crap,how can i die twice?Anyway,the point is,i've got no choice but to go.Couldn't sleep last night.Thought about a lot of stuffs.Actually Johore is not far for me as i've been travelling to Spore lots of times to visit my sis.I even went there alone once.But this is not the same.Visiting my sis is only like a vacation where i spent at most one week there.Then i come back to the hometown i love so much,to those familiar faces,to my bed.Going there to study means i only can come back after like,3 months or so.
*SIGH*
The problem with me is i just can't accept new things.New environment,new friends,new lifestyle.Oh god how i hate changes.If i could,i just want to live a normal life,find a 9-5 work,and just be near to my family and friends.But i have to think of my parents.They want to see me more sucessful than that.But for me,all this doesn't matter.We only live once,what important is to be happy and happy for me is being with people i love.But then someone make me realise i think too much.Geez...It's only three years!I'll only be away from home for three years.After that i can come back and work here.Still,there's a lot troubling me.Will everything still be the same when i come back?
Well,have you ever thought what will this world look like in another...ten years,perhaps?Or twenty?Those pop songs and music we love now,those hairstyles we think are cool now,will not be cool anymore that time.Then the younger generation might start listening to something we dont understand like how our parents dont understand our "Rock" music.Those place we used to hang out with our friends might be flattened out by bulldozer.
Some of you might think "So what's the problem with all this?"
It all sounds normal to you but not to me.I'm scared.I'm afraid of changes especially those that involve all of us.Something like a revolution.I'm not sure why and what is this feeling i had coz everytime i think about those,i got so scared that i feel that i'm suddenly lost.Few nights ago,i sat in Secret Recipe talkin to PL about this and suddenly i feel like i dont know myself,nor do i know her.I look outside and couldnt stop imagining seeing flying cars instead of bicycles and motorcycles on the road.And i turned to look at PL and had this feeling that she,too,might disappear the very next time i blink my eyes.
And then the thoughts of death came to my mind.What is the purpose of life?If at the end we must die?When we die,there's nothing left of us in this world.Like it's disappearing with the moving rythm of the world.So why then we do so much of things in life?Why God put me into this world to wait for the day i die?
This is what a brain can do when still awake at 2a.m. every night(oops...every morning).With so much things on my mind,i've been having weird dreams every night,that mornings are always a daze to me.
Guess i have to stop here and hope i wont think so much anymore to prevent having migraine.Hope this entry doesnt bring headache to those who read it. =D
ADIOS~
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As i stood there waiting for my mom to come fetch me,i looked at the sky.The weather is so nice..sunny but not too hot with cool,chilly wind blowing now and then. And i thought to myself,what a good day!~
But little did i know a little unpleasant surprise is waiting for me.*sigh*
As usual once reached my dad's shop,i switched on the antique comp and go to my blog.My cell was left charging in another room.After visiting all the blogs in my link,i planned to start blogging since i'd recieved "LOTS" of complaints asking me to update.Hee..To ryu,well,my last update was on thurs.Friday take a rest,Saturday not free.Means 2 days didnt blog only ma..Sunday for sure i wont be at my dad's shop so cant blog.Hee..So all together,2days+1 forgivable day,not so kuo fan rite?Hahas..
After a while,i went to check my cell and realise 6 miscalls and 2 msgs.Wow,suddenly everyone so miss me?Haha hell no.I received Eve's msg and i think my heart stopped for a while.Ok,exaggerating.But,still so shocking.She said the application results for local uni is out!!!!!
Well,i thought,this is it.What we've been waiting for,for so long.And my hands shook so terribly when i dialed the UPU infoline.Minutes seem like hours when waiting for the operator to finish crapping.After keying in my ic number,the operator repeated it and said..
"Permohonan anda tidak terdapat dalam pengkalan data."
WTH???!!~
I almost break into tears hearing that.Then i started calling around and finally got to know that the system is not fully updated yet.How i know?
1.If the system has already finish updating,the results will be published on the website too.But there's still nothing in emoe and mohe.
2.YenSan said her friend who got all As also "tiada dalam pengkalan data".So to all those who had gone through the same situation,please do not freak out.Try check again later or on the 22 June.Now it seems those who checked and know their application results,called again the infoline but the informations are no longer there.So i guess,those MOE ppl got to know what is happening,that is we got the news earlier than we should.
*grr* Bad mood.Shall go off now.
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7 more days to my 20th birthday!! *woohoo* Erm,why am i so excited about that?In fact i should feel a bit sad coz i'm no longer in the teens.Haihz..
But still,birthday is something we should be happy about coz we survived yet another year.Hahaha..Very optimistic eh? =D
Thought of creating a birthday wishlist.But i guess it doesnt matter whether it exist or not coz what i really want is wayyy ex which i know my friends couldnt afford and my parents wouldnt get me.Sobz.Anyway,just for the fun of it,here's how my wishlist look like.Heez...
Samantha's Birthday Wishlist
1.Laptop - I seriously need one since my comp is already an antique.Also (if)i'm going to uni,i'm gonna need it.Cant imagine life without Internet.Like something missing.I feel so disabled.Of coz i can always use the library's but still....I WANT A LAPTOP!!!
2.Cash - Hah.The most practical present.So i can shop all i want!!Hee..But telling my parents or my sis that i want cash than present will mean i'm gonna go shopping at pasar malam.Told my sis n mom yesterday that i wanted cash for my birthday and my sis said she'll give me RM10.Mom said she'll give RM10.Dad the same.Total=RM30.RM30 for my birthday from my whole entire family?Sobz.So presents are better.At least it makes me happy when tearing the wrappers and find cute lil surprises inside.I love opening presents.Hee..
3.White roses - I used to like sunflower but lately i just find white roses sho nice.Well,this is kinda affordable and nothing too special about it,but it'll be memorable.Kakaka.Crap.And what i mean by white roses are those nicely wrapped in a bouquet.A big one.Hee...With nice wrappers,nice ribbons.Like those flowers they wrapped in Hong Kong style *winkz*
4.Ipod - Well,nothing much about this.Not really dying for it but just here to add to those expensive stuffs' list.Hahas.
5.Digicam/new camera phone - I love SaoLai's phone so much!!Itz a Nokia camera phone but i'm not sure of the model.Its brilliant in taking photos..erm,self-photos to be exact.Keke..Coz its like the screen can rotate so i can see myself in the screen before taking a shot.Cool!~I know i sound stupid.But...its COOL!~Hee..Or maybe a good digicam.So i can take more pix.Nice pix. =)
6.More clothes - Oh well,this will be included in no 2.Cash.
7.Secret Recipe's Tiramisu Cake - And this means the WHOLE CAKE.Not one slice.Keke..
Hmph..i think that's all i can think of for now.I'm not really looking forward to this year's birthday though.Maybe next year's will be more special and meaningful coz i'll be twenty-one.Bah.Dont wanna think about that yet.Actually simple things can already make me happy(for those thinking what to get me for my birthday),like little surprises.Yes i love surprises!!~ *grin*
Last Sunday,went to a some sort of reunion of the 7 "chi mui",but only 5 of us went coz Joyce already went KL for studies and Queenie was out with family.It was great to see them again after so long.Some people said,friends come and go.Best friends we had during our teens whom we share our secrets,gossips,on who we had a crush on and girlie stuffs might not still be our best friends after we've grown up coz we'll develop into different souls.Then we'll meet new friends when we're studying in unis or college and at work.But for me,childhood friends are the best coz they know me very well and saw me grew up.For being friends for one decade with them,they accept my flaws and stick with me through thick and thin.How many true friends like these can be found out there,in a cat-eat-cat world?Hah.Think about it.So even if you've found new friends,dont ever forget those who had been with you all the way til today *winkz*
The pic at my header was taken at E-Gate,sorta like a building with lotsa great dining place and cool chill outs.Currently my favourite hang out place.Hee..Went there few days ago with PL and took a lot lot of crazy photos.Hahas..Couldnt resist.The place has got good environment,good background and good lightings to take photos! =D
Resolution not so good though...As you can see,took with k700i.
Looks nice?It tastes nice also!Hee..With the thick chocolate sauce on top of the ice..yum! *drool* PL's current favourite dessert at a restaurant called HONG KIE Kopitiam.Nice environment,nice food.Not too ex *wink* It's something like Kim Gary actually.But one thing for sure,when you go there,check out the name of the food and dessert in the menu!You'll laugh definitely.Go see for yourself!~ [Recommended]
Oh btw,if you still dont know where E-Gate is,it's the building opposite Tesco.Along the row of this Hong Kie Kopitiam got StarBucks,Sushi King,Secret Recipe.
Another place recommended is a
japanese restaurant,Tao,also same row with Hong Kie.Go at night.Around 7,you'll only have to pay RM45 for the buffet and guess what?This is not the buffet where you have to walk back and forth to get your food.You just have to sit at your own table,they'll give you the menu and you can order whatever,WHATEVER you want of any price!No limit of times you can order,no limits of price of food,as long as you can finish up.If not you'll have to pay more as penalty.So my advice,order a few rounds.Finish the food first. *wink*
THE FOOD IS FABULOUS.Really.Try the spicy scallops.Recommended.
Well,that's all for now.
Oh ya i realised that i've been blogging only once a week.Hahas..Will try blog more often since i've got nothing to do also de..
Til then,adios!~
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A star may be too small in the sky
But it never fails to shine
You came into my life, and made things bright.
Always there for me, you've touched my heart completely
Even through the darkest night
I see you flickered trying to stay alight.
Through thick and thin, you never choose to leave.
Caring is your name, protecting me is your aim
My heart is yours where no one else can claim
To eternity my love for you will remain.
Never give up on us, cause i will never do
Even when things come to the worst,
Two souls will unite to fight it through.
For as long as the Sun may shine,
My love for you will not be denied.
by sodasodalime
Here i am,once again...
tada~ Again a new template.New skin.Hmph..can call myself chameleon.Not bad eh?Hah.
Niwae,lotsa stufs been happening but i havent got da chance 2 blog.Finally am quite free since sorta finish editing da skin.Not yet finish tho...juz lyk 80%.Stil got sum stufs to do.
Well,since itz been lyk more than a week from my last entry,i totally 4got wat i 1na blog about.Hahas..So here's some random pix.
A pic of me n sao lai.Looks lyk i'm pushing her out of da pic?Haha hell no!We're snappin tiz with w900 n da screen for self potrait is so small!So we had 2 squeeze in.Also itz kinda dark.
Oh even darker.But da proportion looks better.Hahas.Niwae,juz got my hair cut.And gues wat,da hairstylist said i look lyk Kyoko Fukada.
KYOKO FUKADA!!
My hairstylist said i look lyk KYOKO FUKADA.Joke of da day.Couldnt stop laughin when he told me dat.Btw,for those who dunno who is kyoko can go www.google.com n google her.
Me lokin at sao lai's pix.Her trip to redang.She said it was real fun.Hmph..Hope can go ther sumday.
Virtual tears.Hahas..
The Kid
Last Saturday,dad was invited to his fren's open hse sumwher in Sg Dua.So me n sis tagged along.We reached ther n i realised its sort of lyk a reunion for all da tailors in bw.Dad met lots of old frens n we saw lots of uncles n aunties who used to carry us ard when we were in diapers.Even my dad's ex workers whom we had not meet for a very long time were ther.And as usual,da famous question they asked me n sis.
"Got bf d r?"
Hahas..I can even guessed it even b4 they started 2 ask.Well dats not da point of me tellin all d above tho.
Ther's tiz kid,one of my dad's ex-worker's son,who grabbed me n my sis' attention all nite long.He's soooo cute!~He's got da biggest eyes i've ever seen with long,long eyelashes!
So cute rite?He's not only cute,but very clever n cheeky.At first we were lyk disturbin him..n he's kinda sked of us...Hahas...
But after awhile he so used to us dat he keep talkin whole nite with us about superman,batman n spiderman! =D The talk started when he told us he's got a batman outfit in his dad's car.Then he started describing abt those superheroes..Incredible when he knows all abt them,lyk wat color is their outfit n their superpowers,when he's only four!~He was so into his talk dat me n sis had2 pretend we were listenin n interested but actly we were lookin at how cute he is.Lol.
That's him with my hp.He so lyk snappin pix with my hp camera dat he insist we teach him how 2 snap.Then he kept snappin my pix -.-'''
And the talk about superheros lasted whole nite.Hah amazing i can crap with a four year old kid abt dat.He called himself batman,me superman n my sis spiderman.Then i asked his sis whether izit true he had a batman outfit in da car n his sis said not batman,it's superman!And wat make me laugh my heart out was after his sis said dat,he went to his sis n quietly asked,"Eh,i'm superman izit?Not batman r?" =D
Well,he got along so well with us dat he told his parents he wanted to come home with me n sis!~Hahas..his parents juz laughed.
So datz da story about da kid.
N datz all,til i blog again =)
Oh ya,did u guys notice my blog's name is "Untitled"?Well,i stil havent thought of a nice one for now.Gimme suggestions ya~ Thanks in advance!
Adios~~
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